i had a dream last night that i was in a plane as it crashed and though i shouldn’t have survived i did and as soon as i stepped foot on the ground someone kissed me and everything was okay. i wish i knew who it was, they seemed to be the only thing that could keep me sane.
and maybe that’s a metaphor for what my life’s about to go through
i love nights like these when it’s just past 40 degrees and i open my windows and listen to the train as it pulses its way through town and i can also hear the birds chirping and the stars breathing, it makes me feel like maybe this winter won’t be as bad
my go to insult towards my boyfriend when he’s being a pretentious prick and is going out somewhere is “tell me how her pussy tastes” because he’s cheated on me so many times haha wow i just realized how awful this is after i’ve typed it out why the fuck am i in a relationship
i’m extremely unhappy with how my life is right now and don’t know how to fix it and i would talk to someone about it but oh wait i don’t have anyone who would care enough to listen
sometimes i think about how stressful everything is and then i think of how un-stressful it would be to just run away to a one bedroom apartment in the mountains just for a year or two and escape everything and everyone
and come back renewed and hopefully ready to rekindle relationships from before
i’m stuck between a rock and a hard place right now
Track: Do You Love Me Still?
Artist: The Kooks
Album: Inside In / Inside Out
i think it’s really dumb that we’re only friends when you’re not in a relationship